Something not a lot of people know about me is that my papaw was the pastor for a church. It’s a little tiny church, that used to be yellow, right beside my grandparents house. I grew up going there and hearing him preach, but looking back now I wish I would have went every single Sunday.
Religion isn’t something that seems really “popular” to talk about anymore. It’s almost to the point where it’s mocked if you are religious. It’s really sad, but we live in a fallen world so there’s not much else you could really expect. I think it’s just easier to believe in nothing and do whatever you want, than to believe in something which requires the effort of goodness and morality.
When my oldest daughter’s father passed away, I cursed God. I tried to bargain with Him, I screamed at Him, I blamed Him, and I also leaned on Him. I felt so alone, but somehow I knew He was there with me, which made me feel better.
As I have walked through my life, all the different paths that I have taken.. I’ve realized that most of the ones I wouldn’t have necessarily chosen were the best ones for me. Every time I thought God had forsaken me, or just been downright cruel to me, I was proven wrong.
Some people like to ask, how can you believe in Him? You can’t even see Him. They mock religion as though it were the same as fairytales. My reply is simple. I do see Him-
I see Him in the faces of my children.
I see Him in the forgiveness from my husband.
I see Him in the early morning light of each new day.
I don’t just see Him though, I feel Him.
I feel Him in the patience that comes over me when I pray, the love that comes over me when I look at my children, the bond I have with my husband, and in so many other places and moments in my life.
My walk with God has not been an easy or smooth road. It has been riddled with doubts, anger, mistakes, and a whole ton of repentance. I can honestly say though, that my faith has gotten me through a lot, and I don’t know where I would be without it. I still work everyday on learning more about Him, and trying to be a more Godly wife and mother. I strive to teach my children the value of faith, and to someday see them able to lean on it in their life’s trials and struggles.
– Are you a Christian? If not, what religion- or non religion are you? What are your reasons/ thoughts? I’m not one to judge or force my beliefs on you at all. Or to try and convince, or change your mind. I have just always found religion to be so interesting. As well as the lack of. I truly believe just as we all have our own lives to live, we are all entitled to our own beliefs! I look forward to hearing yours!
• Less is Moore •